Going back to the Heart of Worship

Have you ever felt useless?


I did,

I was broken before, my life was meaningless

and I kept putting myself down as possible.

I hurt, and say bad words to myself, and my 

only reason was "I'm a failure".My grades were low,

I always get referral slips and was under provision at school.

I was also an irresponsible son and a worthless brother. 

I felt like trash, and was treated as one too. 

At this period all I wanted was Death, because it was

the easiest way out. 

Then a few days passed my mom noticed me

and asked, Whats my problem, 

I answered back a question: Why am I still alive and suffering all these problems?,

then she scolded me and gave me advice, 

She said ; even if you feel worthless, You are valuable to the Lord.

I paused and taught of the wrong things I've done, 

I felt guilt and realized that "Life can put us down but we 

can choose whether to get back up, help oneself and Lord will Help us".

Now I'm back to that life where I feel useless, but now I'm choosing to make things Right. :)